Blooper Reel…

Last month marked a year since I started The Electric Oracle, and this month marks a year since I started posting videos to YouTube! To celebrate, I made this blooper reel. Safe to say it could have gone on for an hour, but I wouldn’t subject anyone to that… enjoy!

Love and luck,

Clodagh X

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I’ve been trying to cobble together a long-ish written post for weeks now, but the words aren’t flowing. Not that I mind, really. It’s a lull more than a blockage.

One of the things I wanted to write about was the concept of luck. I’ve felt extremely unlucky this year, for a variety of reasons. It is not, however, the ‘unluckiness’ that bothers me; it will pass. I know that. It is the unending guilt I have felt for labelling this time in my life as a misfortunate one that irks me.

I do believe that we create our own luck. I really do. We can place ourselves in fortunate circumstances by doing plenty, living full lives – whatever you want to call it. The more you do and the more you believe, the luckier you are.

So what about ‘bad’ luck? Is it my fault that life has been loathsomely unkind to me this year? Did I upset the wheel of fortune? Am I nothing more than a lazy cynic? In some respects, apparently so.

You’re a pessimist. You’re attracting negativity. You’re not trying. Way to make someone feel better, eh?

Please, if you so much as dare believe that someone has invited misfortune into their life, take a step back. Do you really believe I sat down with Life and asked for Grief with a side of Misery? How rational. I even promised to reflect upon 2018 as a time when ‘I really grew as a person’. Hilarious.

The crux of this piece is to (a) assure people that bad luck is not something we attract (b) life is uncontrollable at least 75% of the time and (c) you are in no way, shape or form a bad person for feeling unlucky. It is almost laughable, narcissistic even, when someone claims to avoid misfortune by ‘thinking positively’, and that you are by default responsible for the good and bad events in life.

I could go on for days about this, but I would’t subject anyone to that. Congratulations if you made it this far.

Love and (ironically) luck,

Clodagh X

P.S. – It is totally ok and normal to feel awful about the bad things in life. Not everything is an ‘opportunity for growth’. Shit happens. And it’s shit. Nothing more, nothing less.

The Electric Oracle – Happy 1st Birthday! Q & A to follow, comment questions…

 

I can’t quite believe I’m writing this, but today, the 4th of July, marks one whole year since the beginning of The Electric Oracle!

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This space was born out of a need for expression and release; I never thought I would find such a sense of community through my interactions with readers and other writers. I feel incredibly lucky to have this (unexpected) platform. You can read my first ever post here.

Thank you all so, so much for sticking with me this year, all 1226 of you. It is an absolute joy to interact with each and every one of you. I have sought much guidance and wisdom from various comments and exchanges – you have no idea how grateful I am for it all.

In light of this celebration, I have decided to do a Q & A session! Somehow I’ve never done one before…

If you’d like to, leave a question in the comments below and I will answer it in my next post. You can ask whatever you like (provided it’s not NSFW!), whether it be about writing, life, or something more personal. I’ll be accepting questions until this Sunday the 8th July.

You can also comment a question on my latest video here.

Thank you so, so, SO much for this year,

Love and luck,

Clodagh X

a russian mystery: postcards decoded (VIDEO)

If you happened to watch my mini vintage collection video, you’ll know that I have these beautiful Russian postcards that all have handwritten messages on them; thanks to some very kind people (namely Eogh and Amy, you can find their twitter accounts in the video description), I was able to get these messages translated! Russian cursive and Russian print are two very different things, so this was no mean feat.

 

… There may or may not be a little bit of clickbait in the thumbnail. Enjoy!

Love and luck,

Clodagh X

the stagnation of ‘having it all’

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I was really, really happy before Christmas. The happiest I’d been in years. Life was gliding and it felt fantastic.

You can guess where this is going. In January of this year, things went downhill and life got bleak. Again. There was no life; I breathed, ate, slept, but nothing more.

Thankfully I have readjusted, and life has colour again. I want to savour, not survive. In the past three months I have done more than I ever did in the five-ish months before Christmas. There have been dips and dark days, but I plough ahead because I know I want to, not because I have to.

I truly believe that I ‘had it all’ before Christmas; the soft contentedness was almost childlike. Nothing could – and nothing did – harm me. This was wonderful, but it was stagnant. Deeply, deeply stagnant. I relaxed into complacency, dropping me further into stagnation.

Fast forward to this year in all its painful glory, and I have accomplished far more. Searing trauma has provided me with contrast; if life can be terrible, life can be great. If I plough ahead and focus on this greatness, the contrast intensifies and life gets better. Of course no-one would want the pain to get worse, but viewing it through the lens of contrast can make the great even greater.

What I’m really trying to say is that ‘having it all’ is not what ‘having it all’ is built up to be. All you need is a taste; any more and you are sucked into a life unlived. A content life unlived is still a life unlived.  We need the pain to encourage us to live our lives out of our own accord.

Don’t let your life glide past. You really don’t need to have it all.

Love and luck,

Clodagh X

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